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ORIGINAL: Terath

Well, I can understand why you would think that, but I think you're wrong. Why? Because I simply cannot identify with the music. I've heard people say "I wish the music were more upbeat" or "I wish there were fewer hymns" and whatnot. That's not my problem. The problem is that I simply can't stand drumming outside of a thrashing double bass beat, can't stand vocals outside of a death metal growl, can stand guitars outside of a thrash metal shred-fest, etc. It's not music I could praise anyone, God or not with. If the music is a completely foreign experience to me, how could it ever possibly come from my heart at all? Now, unless God is merciful and plops With Blood Comes Cleansing and As I Lay Dying in my church suddenly, I'm probably not going to be able to sing the music from my heart. That's what worship is, right? A heartfelt expression of your love for God. Well, I can't very well do that listening to the funeral dirge that 90% of all Christian music, period, is to me. It's not how I can relate to God, not in the least. So it would be better to simply not sing, but it's what's expected of me and everyone else. At church, it probably wouldn't be a problem if I didn't sing, as far the number of people goes. But at school it's another issue. I'd say about 10 people in the whole school actually sing in chapel, not counting the worship team. Since I'm willing to, as a sort of duty, I will if it will help make it sound like at least someone cares. At least I care enough about God to try to sing to him, even if it's painful every step of the way. Few of my peers do.