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The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 6/15/2006 11:41:37 AM
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Hello everyone!!! I am Psalm100 and I have been a part of Crosswalk for about a year. I gave my life to Christ about 3yrs. ago. I am a single female with no children. I decided to start this blog because I want to share the joys and struggles of my life.
As you some of you may know the christian life is not always easy. In fact Jesus said in the Book of John that we will have tribulation but to be of good cheer because He have overcome the world. If any of you have read my previous posts you will know that I will be losing my job in a couple of weeks. The bills are going to still flow whether I have a job or not. But I have resolved to trust in the God of my Salvation. I have an interview next week so hopefully something will shake out of the hat. I have had people stab me in the back and talk about me BUT I have resolved to trust in the Lord.
I am part of an exciting ministry. I have only been a part of this ministry for about 3 months and I believe God is going to do something incredible for this ministry. And I think He is going to use me in a mighty powerful way within this ministry. We are currenlty meeting in a school until we can get a building of our own. So I am praying that God will provide all the necessary resources. I am so excited. Well I gotta go now. I'll check back in later. Be Blessed!!!!!!!
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 6/18/2006 2:55:41 PM
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Happy Father's Day to all Fathers!!!!
I woke up this morning thanking my Heavenly Father for being a Father to me. I am so glad that I can call Him "Daddy". I also give thanks to my earthly father as well. Can you believe it? I just bought my father his gift about an hour ago. Procrastinators!!!!
This weekend has been pretty good. I have been reading, studying, and meditating on the Word of God all weekend. I was somehow engrossed in the Book of John Chapter 15.
With all that I am going through I can't help but believe maybe God is "pruning" me. Maybe me losing my job is a way to get my attention and to help steer me to my destiny. I don't know why I am having a difficult time. I know that I have to trust God.
In the meantime I will continue to be about God's business. I will also be volunteering at a local calling center. That way I can get my mind off myself and encourage and help someone else who maybe having a hard time. My heart goes out to hurting people. Some people can have a smile on their face and inside they are dying. I believe God has a tender heart towards those that are hurting.
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 6/19/2006 10:24:51 AM
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Praise be unto God!!!! He has allowed me to see another morning. I have to admit I didn't want to get out of bed this morning. I would have prefered to sleep the morning away. I only have a couple of days on my job until I am officially unemployed. I thank God for His mercy and grace. This is very difficult but I find that God keeps giving me strength. I am amazed at some of the things that God does. There are two particular christians songs that I love. Everytime I hear these two songs my spirit gets stirred and sometimes I cry. I can just hear the heart of our Father in these two songs. And it seems at night that God allows these two songs to play on the radio and most of the time I can do nothing but weep in His presence.
During my prayer time I have asked God to send me people that I can share my faith and witness His love. I don't only want to give my money but I also want to give myself to others. I have also asked God to give me a clean heart and to gut out anything that is not pleasing to Him. Every once in a while it is always good to examine your faith and see where you stand. I want to have faith that will move mountains. I want my prayers to be powerful and to be confident when I pray unto God. I want to see answers and results when I pray. I want to spend more time reading and studying God's Word. The times that I am not searching for a job I plan to be studying and meditating on God's Word more than ever before. It's so much wisdom in His Word and I have to admit I am hungry for His Word.
Hopefully this fall I will be able to return back to school. I feel this is something that God wants me to do. Surely, He is going to have to provide the resources. I know things are going to work out for me.
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 6/20/2006 10:35:51 AM
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Howdy everybody. I am glad be alive and well this morning. And most of all Jesus Christ is alive and well!!!! Praise the Lord.
Last night during my study time I came across this scripture:
Ephesians 5:17 Wherfoe be ye not unwise but understanding what the will of the Lord is.
I asked the Lord a question pertaining to myself: How can I do your will if I don't know what
Your Will is? I know what God's general will is but I fail to understand what His specific will is for my life. I contstantly asks God what does He want me to do with my life? I guess sometimes you just have to keep asking, seeking, and knocking. In due time I believe He will let me know what He wants me to do with my life. Of course He will guide my every step.
I had a pretty decent conversaiton with my neighbor this morning. As many of you know I have an interview today for a job. She asked me where was I going all dressed up. I didn't want to tell her that I will be unemployed in a couple of days. I finally told her I have an interview. She gave me the number to an organization that will help displaced workers return back to school. They will pay for your books, tuitionfees, and gas mileage. So I guess it was meant for me to see her this morning. I definetaly will check and find out what this organziation is all about. Going back to school is something that I want to do in order to better myself.
The Lord continues to amaze me. He allowed those same two songs that I love to hear on the radio back to back last night. Of course I cried again in His presence. I was awaken by a rattling noise early this morning at about 5:00. I looked around and wondered where the noise came from. I saw nothing amiss. I heard the word "Pray". I was so tired and my bed was feeling so good that I mumbled a half hearted prayer. I can't even remember what I said. I asked the Lord to help me to be more sensitive and obedient unto His Spirit. The next time that happens I am going to drag out of bed and pray sincerely and fervently. Well it is almost time for my interview. I will definetly keep you guys updated. Be Blessed!!!
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 6/20/2006 1:12:40 PM
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I just got back from my interview. I guess it went pretty well. For the most part I am convinced that what God has for me is going to be for me no matter what. They said they have a few more people to interview and that they would let me know something soon. So now all I can do is wait and abide in Jesus Christ.
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 6/21/2006 4:21:23 PM
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Howdy Everybody!!!!!!!!!
Today has been a somber day. I just received notification that I didn't get the job I interviewed for yesterday. I also received a letter in the mail today stating that the company has received my application and will give me a call for an interview if they are interested in me. I figured the job wasn't meant for me to have. I can't help but believe that God is stretching my faith. He wants to know if I am going to trust Him in the midst of this situation. I can't let this rejection get me down. I am going to continue to perservere. My God is Mighty and Powerful and If I trust Him He will show Himself strong in my situation. The enemy would have me to give up. He doesn't want me to go to church or worship God. He wants me to focus on my situation. Since I am a dislocated worker there is a program that will help pay for school. Right now I don't have a degree and that makes it even harder to find a good paying job. It is going to take God Almighty to find me a good paying job until I can obtain my degree. Please keep me in your prayers.
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 6/22/2006 9:41:26 AM
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Thank God!!! He has allowed me so see another morning.
I feeling ok today so far. I am trying to stay uplifted in Jesus despite my circumstances. Through out all of my trials I have never question God's love for me. I know that He loves and cares for me. I was reading in the Book of Matthew this morning when it describes the time Jesus was walking on water. And Peter had the faith to step out of the boat. But as soon as he started focusing on the waves, he began to sink. I can liken that to my situation. I can't look at the "waves" because if I do I will probably sink. I have to keep my focus on the Lord who will sustain me.
I attended Bible Study last night. We are currently meeting in a school until the Lord provides a way for us to purchase a building. I am exicted about this ministry and I believe that the Lord is going to do good things thru this ministry. I am going to keep on praying and believing that God meets the spiritual and physical needs of the Body of Christ. We as God's people have to pray without ceasing. It is plenty of work to do and it is up to us to get this work done. There are too many souls that hurting and are in need of Jesus. My prayer is that God will use me to be a witness for Him on this earth. That I may testify of His goodness and mercry.
I also spoke to my former pastor last night. Despite me leaving my former church we are still friends. I felt like I had to have someone to talk to. I admire the strength of my former pastor. My former pastor has been thru alot of trials and knows that God will bring His children thru their trials. Well I gotta go now, I will check back in later.
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 6/23/2006 12:36:49 PM
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Thank God for another day!!!!!!!!!
I had a serious talk with God last night. I literally poured out my thoughts and feelings to Him. I know that He knows and sees my struggles. Jesus said that we would have trouble in this life. I talked to a young lady yesterday who has recently recommitted her life to Christ. And she said that she asked God why is her life falling apart. She told me she was trying to live right. I knew that I had to immediatley encourage her. I told her that the Lord said that we would have trouble. The enemy knows she wants to get her life right with the Lord and now he is trying everything he can to undermine her renewed faith in Jesus. The devil is so cunning and evil. But I told her we as christians have to continue to pray and ask the Lord for guidance and direction. I haven't talked to her today. I hope and pray she is fine.
Please continue to pray for me concerning my job search. The enemy tried to speak lies to me last night. It was if my body was trying to succumb to depression. I read the book by Stormie Omartian. It gave 15 reasons why we should praise God and 15 reasons to praise God. Lord knows this book has blessed me. I could really hear God's voice in this book. As for right now I will continue to trust in the Lord.
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 6/24/2006 2:02:42 PM
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Thank God for yet another day!!! He is so good and merciful.
I talked on the phone for almost 2hours to a good friend of mine. She is a christian as well. And we literally talked about the Lord the entire time we were on the phone. I feel a little refreshed today. One of my sisters co-workers called me and encouraged me inthe Lord. She told me to remain faithful in the midst of this situation and that God was going to see to it that every one of my needs be met. Just thought I would check in. I am going out of town to visit my brother.
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 6/26/2006 1:01:29 PM
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Thanks be unto God for another day!!!!
My weekend went pretty well. I had the opportunity to spend time with my family which is always good. They have been very supportive of me thru my trials. I just came back from job searching. Unfortunately nothing has turned up. But I am still hopeful that someone will call me for an interview. I feel kind of numb today. I know God is with me and will see me thru but in the natural it looks as if I'm going to sink. I have been casting down these negative thoughts. I didn't even want to get out of the bed to go to church yesterday. But I know God gave me the strength to get up and go. I went into service feeling numb and left feeling numb. I spent all day looking at different televangelists. Some of the sermons uplifted me. I don't know what else to do but trust God in this situation. This is by far the hardest trial I have ever had to go thru.
We are taking communion this week. I'm kinda looking forward to it. When I think about the great sacrifice Christ made for us I get full of joy. I am so glad to be a part of His family and I look forward to spending eternity with Him. He is coming back soon. Will He find faith in the earth?
Well I gotta go I will check back in later.............
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 6/27/2006 3:19:43 PM
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Praise God!!! It's good to be alive. Last night on my way home I began to thank God for His faithfullness and kindness. By the time I entered into my house I was in tears. I could do nothing but praise my King. I thanked Him for being with me in the time of trouble. I thanked Him for all the many times He rescued me and most of all I thanked Him for saving my soul from eternal damnation. God is sooooo gooooood!!!!!
I know God is going to see me thru. I have got a couple of job leads. At least two of them seem to be promising. I told the Lord I didn't mean to rush Him, I asked Him to help me find a job real soon. I am not one to sit around and do nothing all day. The lady from the organization where I will be volunteering called me. I was very happy. She is going to train me later in mid July. I just want to be a blessing to someone else. I hope and pray that God will use me in a mighty powerful way. I will be visiting my brother again this weekend. The Lord has found him a job and it took no time for him to do it. So I thank God for my brother. He gave His life to Christ, but it seems as if He has drifted away from the Lord. I continually pray for his salvation.
I will leave you with Revelation 21:4 And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow nor crying neither shall there be any more pain for the former things are passed away.
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 6/30/2006 12:16:14 PM
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Praise the Lord!!!!!!!!!!!!
I really don't have much to post about today. I am just hanging around and taking it easy today. I did have a terrible nightmare last night. I know it had to be from the devil. I was engaging in spiritual warfare in my sleep. I stayed up for awhile and meditated upon the Lord. He gave me comfort and peace. Other than that things are going pretty well. I am determined to keep my focus upon the Lord.
I leave you with: It was good that I was afflicted that I might learn your statues.
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 7/8/2006 6:42:58 PM
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Howdy Everyone!!!!!!!!!
I hope that all is well. I am trying not to fall into depression. I know the enemy would like nothing more than for me to fret and worry about my situation. I have to admit that I am a little weary. My job search has been going on for about 2wks. I haven't had any solid leads yet. I can fill out an application with my eyes closed. I just don't what else to do but keeping on posting my resume and filling out applications. I know that faith without works is dead. I know I have to DO something. I am doing my part and I know God is going to do his part. It's not just my job I'm frustrated about.
It's almost as if I don't have a life. No friends, just literally God and me. I had a few friends but it seemed as if God literally snatched them out of my life. And I have to admit some of those people I had dealings with; I know they weren't any good for me. So I know God knows what He is doing. I am looking forward to church on tomorrow. It seems when I am in church I have the most hope. But as soon as I leave the same problems are staring me in the face.
Lord when will you rescue me from this pain and misery????
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 7/8/2006 7:03:36 PM
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I can not fathom life with out God. I just don't know what I would do without Him.
He is:
The Light of the World
Our Comforter
The Rose of Sharon
The Bright and Morning Star
The Good Shepherd
I Am
Bread from Heaven
Lily of the Valley
Jehovah Nissi
Jehovah Jirah
Jehoval Shalom
Our Redeemer
Our Deliverer
Our Help in the time of trouble
Our Salvation
AND SO MUCH MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
With God by my side I know I can weather any storm. I can fight the good fight of faith!!!!
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 7/11/2006 11:00:01 AM
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Praise the Lord!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yesterday instead of looking for a job; I spent quality time with my Father. I know I needed to look for a job but I had a desire to spend time with the Lord. I have to admit I feel refreshed today, even though I received news that could easily frustrate me. I thank God for sustaining me during this time.
Waiting upon God: Seems like such a hard thing to do. But with God's strength we can wait and not faint. I heard one preacher say if you pray you won't faint.
The scripture that comes to my mind is:
Psalm 27:14 Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strenghthen thine heart wait, I say on the Lord.
Lord I'm Waiting...............................
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 7/14/2006 11:43:09 AM
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Praise the Lord Everyone!!!!!!!!!!
Well today I am feeling a little tired and weary. The last two days have been a hard. I have barely been able to eat or sleep. I have been asking God to give me strength. Even through my weariness and tiredness I have felt the presence of the Lord. I know that He is still with me. I'm just ready to find employment. I feel like I am unproductive.
On another note, I had the opportunity to spend time with my cousin yesterday. He told me that he was ready to find a wife and told him I was ready to have a husband. I have a strong desire to marry and have children. Sometimes this desire is so overwhelming .And I am asking God when are you going to send my mate. I guess I have no other choice but to wait upon Him. Being single is hard. Praying that God will see me through.
*******Anyone that reads this blog please pray for me concerning my job interview on next week. This seems like the perfect job for me. Please pray that the Lord gives me favor. Pray for my mind as well that He will keep my mind in perfect peace.*********
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 7/16/2006 1:29:42 PM
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Hello everyone!!!!!!!!!
I just got back from church service. The Man of God really preached a powerful Word. He's only 20 yrs. old and God is using Him mightly. It always amazes me to see God use young people. I hope and pray that God will continue to use him to reach out to other young people. I know his parents are very pleased with him.
I feel that God maybe calling me to fast. Fasting is a hard noble thing for me to do especially because I like to eat. I know it is what I need to do but somehow or another I can't seem to do it. Plus I want my motive to be right. I don't want to feel like I am "twisting God's arm". But on the other hand I need to hear from God concerning the plan that He has for my life. Right now it seems as if I am drifting through life, making my own decisions. I am quite frankly frustrated. I know what I want to do but I don't know what God wants me to do. Is God pleased with me? Am I being a faithful servant?
I guess these are questions only God can answer.
I had a discussion with God about this subject last night. But it seems as if God is silent. That frustrates me even more!!!!! It is so many people who are doing the will of God and quite honestly they seem happy being in God's perfect will. God is no respector of persons. Surely if He leads and guides other people He will lead and guide me. As for now I am going to continue to seek Him. And I am even going to go on the fast that I keep stubbornly resisting.
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 7/20/2006 11:02:28 AM
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Howdy Everyone!!!
I have nothing major to report. I am still waiting for a specific employer to call me. This particular job seems perfect for me. I am hoping and praying that God opens this door for me. I was offered a position with a company but I don't think I am going to accept the position. The pay isn't that good plus the employer can't guarantee me 40hrs. per week. I hate to seem picky. But I don't think it's any use in accepting a position you really don't want. I am trying not to get frustrated but I am. Praying that something will work out soon. Please continue to pray.
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 7/21/2006 1:41:02 PM
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Hello Everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well today has been another day of discouragement and frustration. I am utterly disgusted with my life right now. I'm grateful to be alive but I just wish things were different. I know we are supposed to be content in whatever state we are in. But it seems like certain people are selected to suffer pain and discouragement. I am trying to hold onto my faith in the living God. One minute I am strong and the next minute I am weak.
I don't know what else to do.
Being a christian isn't easy. I will tell anyone that wants to be a christian to be ready to suffer pain, opposition, persecution, rejection, and the list goes on and on. One had better count the cost before they make the committment to follow Christ.
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 7/25/2006 11:47:53 AM
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Well I really don't have much to report today. I am still waiting to hear back from a job. I am trying to wait patiently. I know that God is going to come through for me but I just don' t know when. So I will continue to wait.
Church service was wonderful Sunday. The Spirit of God really ministered to broken hearts. I could do nothing but cry and worship God. I know God knows my every pain. I left services with a little more strength. I'm praying that God will continue to heal me.
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 7/26/2006 11:30:04 AM
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Hello Everyone,
Well it's another day that God in His mercy has allowed me to see. As you all know I've been very frustrated with situations that are going on in my life. I'm dealing with the loss of a job that I loved and the loss of what I thought was a friendship. I know I can't continue to focus on my pain and frustration. I have to keep my focus upon my Savior. Knowing and believing that He has my best interests at heart.
Last night I got serious with God. I told Him that I felt broken and I was mourning the loss of my job and a so called friendship. I told Him I felt like life had been sucked out of me. I continue to pray and I listened to worship music. In the midst of it all I gave God thanks and praise. During the morning hours I heard the voice of God: You will see My Power and Glory displayed. You will see it. Let Me handle everything. OK. And my response was: Ok God. You can have my life because I don't know what to do. If there is any course of action I need to take please let me know. I know that I have to trust You and rest in You. So today I feel at peace knowing that God is going to take care of me.
I received word today that my financial aid was denied once again. Another opportunity for me to get frustrated. But then I recalled what God had told me. So I called one of my former class mates and she is going to let me use her math book. I won't have to be concerned about buying a math book. I will only take one class because I am not in the position to take more than one. I am at peace and I will trust God.
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RE: The Joys and Struggles in the Life of Psalm100 - 7/29/2006 2:38:19 PM
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Howdy everyone!!!
I am doing pretty good today. I awoke this morning in the presence of the Lord. It felt so good to wake up in His presence. It was about 5:30am. THe only thing I could hear is my refrigerator running and the air conditioner. It was so peaceful. I picked up my Bible and read John 10. I have been studying this chapter for about two days. God is our shepherd. He is concerned about us. He protects us from the "wolves". We recognize His voice and follow Him. We will not listen to the voice of a "stranger". God knows His sheep. Reading this chapter brought me peace and security in knowing that Jesus is my Shepherd.
I have a very important decision to make in the next couple of days. I was offered a job. The only thing negative thing about this job is that it doesn't pay much and there are no benefits. The employer couldn't guarantee me 40hrs a week. Right now my unemployment will pay me more than this job. I don't even know if this job will allow me to pay my bills. I am totally exhausted in my job hunt. Day in and day out I constantly look for a job. The only reason I would take this job is because I am tired of looking for a job and I am tired of having nothing to do. I have prayed and asked God what I should do. But I have yet to receive an answer from Him. I am so afraid I will make a wrong move. You know there are some christians who move before God tells them and they end up getting themselves in a mess. I don't want this to happen to me.
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